Thursday, February 08, 2007

Thankful

It's hard to believe that it's been a year since Amy went to be with the Lord. I remember the events of that horrific day as if they were yesterday and yet it seems so long ago. It feels like years have passed at yet it's only been 12 months.

How could I have ever known the difficulties that would accompany every stage of the grief and recovery process. Some were to be expected, others caught me blindsided. But through it all, I'm certain that God has done a work in my heart. I'm not the man I was a year ago. For that, I'm thankful.

In fact, on this day that is supposed to be so heavy, I find myself so thankful.
  • Thankful that God allowed me to experience that wonderful season with Amy - brief as it was.
  • Thankful for the memories.
  • Thankful that I have tasted a healthy, vibrant, godly marriage and know what it takes to make one work.
  • Thankful for what Amy brought to my ministry.
  • Thankful that Amy helped to bring Emrie into my life.
  • Thankful for the foundation Amy helped to pour for Emrie's faith - I see the fruits of her labor.
  • Thankful for the growth I have experienced.
  • Thankful for the support I've enjoyed from family and friends over the last year.
  • Thankful for my future.
  • Thankful for my God who has not left me to walk this journey alone.

I'm not sure if blogs are read in heaven - but if you're reading this Ame - we miss you and are so thankful for what you brought to our lives.

5 comments:

Chad's Dad said...

Chad...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts about Amy. It helps me to read your thoughts about Amy. I'm still grieving the loss of not having Amy with us. I miss her so much.

I can't imagine what the Barnard family is feeling this day. I wonder what Emrie thinks when she misses her mommy, yet doesn't know how to grasp the finality of it all. I pray this day, that God will grant all of us who love Amy, the peace that only HE can bring to us. Her memory will live on forever with us. I can't wait for the day when Emrie is old enough to begin to ask about her mommy. I know a lot of people who will open the flood gates of wonderful memories about Amy. I wish you peace my son.

Love,

Dad

Jen said...

Thinking of you today!

Jen said...

Thinking of you today!

Sandi said...

That was beautiful Chad, and I know your words are ALWAYS FROM YOUR HEART. As you said, "You don't understand God's way, but you love HIM anyway".

Yes we thank Amy and remember her with love for all she taught us. Thank you Chad! Thank you Amy!

May God continue to lead you Chad. Love Aunt Sandi

Sandi said...

To all the Barnard family. May God hold you, ever so gently, but firmly and comfort you.

I pray for peace from our Great God! Sandi